1. |
nervous nelly
00:49
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Why am I turning it red?
Quiet blue
Soft green
You filthy, filthy man
Soon I am gonna be dead
Silent eyes
And a high voice
Why am I turning it red?
Quiet blue
Soft green
Soon I am gonna be dead
Turning it red
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2. |
domisology 4
03:18
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I am here a faceless nub
Information passes through me
How can I be busting through
In the outside so I see you?
Maybe if I play a pretty tune?
Take it to the top of the chorus!
Stars are only stars if they burn out
So we have to be in the fire
I am here a faceless nub
Information kills
The trope is always there
You feel alone and missing home
It takes the thing to stall
so you can feel it start again
I think you thought too much
So now you live inside your head
inside your head 8x
It’s true
No one ever knew you
It’s true
No one ever knew you, baby
It’s true
No one ever knew you
Dad?
No one!
Maybe if I play a pretty tune?
Take it to the top of the chorus!
Stars are only stars if they burn out
So we have to be in the fire
I am here a faceless nub
Information passes through me
How can I be busting through
In the outside so I see you?
The trope is always there
You feel alone and missing home
It takes the thing to stall
so you can feel it start again
I think you thought too much
So now you live inside your head
your head 2x
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3. |
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All that I can say
Is I’m sayin’ what I’m feelin’
Makin’ love for days
In the red that keeps me movin’
I am so afraid
Cold and lonely here just waitin’
Why don’t you believe?!
What i say is what i'm feelin’
Look at this, look at me
Look at the way I move
And make
Make up your own mind
Take it in, take it in
Take all the time you need
Take it 5x
Miocene, pliocene
Check out these lengths of time
For your mind
To get all its shit right
Take it in, take it in
Take all the time you need
Take it 5x
OwO!
All that I can say
Is I’m sayin’ what I’m feelin’
Makin’ love for days
In the red that keeps me movin’
I am so afraid
Cold and lonely here just waitin’
Why don’t you believe?!
What i say is what i'm feelin’
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4. |
innie
00:58
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5. |
cumming makes me die
01:52
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Nothin’ but a blood man
I’m nothin’ but a blood man, baby
And I’m
Here to take off all your clothes
And cover you in red
I’m nothin’ but a blood man
I’m nothin’ but a blood man, baby
And I’m
Here to take off all your clothes
And cover you in red
I’m nothin’ but a red man
Nothin’ but a red man, baby
And I don’t know
What I’m gonna do
If I can’t feel any better soon
I’m nothin’ but a red man
I’m nothin’ but a red man, baby
And I don’t know
What I’m gonna do
If I can’t get better soon
Give it to me, give it to me
Give it to me, give it to me
Give it to me, give it to me
Cumming makes me die
All the blood comes out my eyes
Give it to me, give it to me
Give it to me, give it to me
Give it to me, give it to me
Cumming makes me die
All the blood comes out my eyes
Oh!
I’m nothin’ but a stick man (oh)
Nothin’ but a stick man, baby
And every word
I’ve ever said
To you has been a lie (oh oh oh)
Nothin’ but a stick man (no)
Nothin’ but a stick man, baby
And all I want to do
Is get
Thrown in your fire (oh)
Give it to me, give it to me
Give it to me, give it to me
Give it to me, give it to me
Cumming makes me die
All the blood comes out my eyes
Give it to me, give it to me
Give it to me, give it to me
Give it to me, give it to me
Cumming makes me die
All the blood comes out my eyes
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6. |
outie
00:45
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7. |
literally the best
04:51
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I’m looking at the best thing
I’m looking at the best damn thing
That I have ever had
I’m looking at the best thing (oh)
I’m looking at the best damn thing
That I have ever had
She’s the best
Yeah she’s the best
Looking at the way she’s in my life
It makes me happy
This is why I feel so good
today
You know you pulled the rug
Right out from under my feet
And do you understand
Just how hard I’ve worked for this?
You’re the best
Babe you’re the best
Adding up the things inside my head
And I am sorry
This is best to take a rest
Away
All I know
I know it all
All the little ways I broke it down
And I am sorry
No thing now but walk away and
Wait
0w0 < u h o h ! ! !
I remember my father
Sitting angry across from my mother
Screaming out words I didn’t understands
Shaking his arms and pointing his fingers
And he slams an envelope down on the counter
It was the that one counter off the corner
And it didn’t really look right
It didn’t really look like the rest of the furniture in the kitchen
And for some reason it didn’t close
I dunno that’s, that’s besides the point
The point is dad started to scream:
“Do you have any idea how much it costs to feed this family?
Do you have any idea how much it costs to feed this family?
Do you have any idea how much it costs to feed this family of mine?
And do you understand how fragile life is?
Do you understand how fragile life is?
Do you understand how hard I worked for this?”
I’m a mess
Babe I’m a mess
I can see all the problems
I am dealing with
But I can’t change a thing
Today
All I know
Is all I’ve seen
Seeing is believing and I’ve
Seen this all before my eyes
Belief that I am
Dad/dead
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8. |
sideways groan
03:49
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Oh I just want to sleep here in my bed
Oh I just want to sleep here in my bed
It freezes now
At the back of your mind
You’re alone now
And noone will wait
Reach out right now
Or you’ll never make it out
You’re afraid here
And don’t want to die
Where is my face?
Where is my face?
I can’t find my face
[mumbling about not finding my face] …..
To fall down at
The foot of Jesus Christ
You feel bad
That you let yourself die
To fall down at
The foot of your mother’s bed
You feel bad
That she starved herself
I am getting better almost every single day now
Shame I can’t go back and change my past
But I guess it’s over now
I am getting better almost every single day now
I am not a monster everyday everyday now
I am getting better almost every single day now
I feel alone here
Where I am waiting
I will be going
Home pretty soon
Dial your past right back
See the strength that you lack
I see zones of life
I never wanted them back
I want my life to go on without
Those kinds of me
And I want knifes to come
So my old face can leave
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9. |
the vortex
05:03
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Cold room in a damp house
Things you question without understanding
But you know intuitively to be out of place
Silly smells distract you from
The TV turned up too loud
I there are at least ten TVs in this house
An infinite beige impression
To feel damp but alive in all of this
Recharge your soul with pasta and preserves
And other things that you don’t care to dislike that much
Looking down the ever-expanding
Vortex of wives in the love loop
Oh! Beautiful wives!
To fill up a thousand lives of mine
I’ve developed a rather sophisticated cloning device
Makes it possible for me to be in two places at once
And I’m working on an idea
A pretty wacky idea of what I’m gonna do with the other me
Let’s just say
It’s a hell of a finish
[part a and part b from below occur simultaneously]
[part a]
Next week, probably around tuesday
I’m going to buy a bulldozer
And I’m going to run over my other self
with a bulldozer
Starting at the feet
Working my way up
So that the blood pushes right out my eyes
[part b]
Please my lord just
Show me spaces
Where I can get
Squeezed like toothpaste
A monster truck
Or a big rig
Or a baseball game
A context to define myself
A wall to hang these paintings on
These paintings I made for her
Only for her
Looking down the ever-expanding
Vortex of wives in the love loop
Oh! Beautiful wives!
To fill up a thousand lives of mine
I’ve developed a new technique!
A way to structure all of your social interactions
So that you control all those around you
So they will never complain about you
Or the things that you’re not doing
Or the things that you are
You can go to your room
And lay in your bed
And go to sleep for as
Long as you want
Even if you have people in your life
Just cut them off! Just cut them off
And then you construct images of those people
And freeze them in your head
And don’t let them out
Don’t let them move!
Or then they’ll become disappointed in you
And they’ll leave!
An infinite beige impression
To feel damp but alive in all of this
Recharge your soul with pasta and preserves
And other things that you don’t care to dislike that much
Feeling like you’re gonna die real soon
No!
I lost it
I fell down the vortex and lost my legs
Now I have no legs
And I want to be better
Want to be stronger
Probably won’t go down any vortices anymore
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10. |
i'm eating me
03:41
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O - O mmm oooohhhh okayyy aaaaaaa
You! What I’m wantin’
Wanting to feel in your body, baby
No, I feel better
But I don’t wanna eat all my body, baby
You! You look better
Wanting to be in my body, baby
I, I feel sorry
Sorry for making me sorry
Lookin’ like a kind of food
It takes internalizing all your slime
No one even really wants to know
What is going on inside your head
Silly days can all but melt away
But the spit is spilling out you still
drippin’ out of bounds inside your head
It is hot and heating up to cook with it
No! I don’t want it
I don’t want to be any better
No! I’m not ready
Not ready to be any stronger, baby
Please, feelin’ so good inside my body
Please, feelin’ so good inside my soul
Please, please, please
Lookin’ like a kind of food
It takes internalizing all your slime
No one even really wants to know
What is going on inside your head
Silly days can all but melt away
But the spit is spilling out you still
drippin’ out of bounds inside your head
It is hot and heating up to cook with it
Please my baby
I don’t wanna be in my body
Please my baby
I don’t wanna be in my body
Please my baby
I don’t wanna be in my body
Please my baby
I don’t wanna be in my body
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11. |
laying rail
04:41
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[unintelligible dutch transit announcement]
Ooh Ow!
Oh well
Oh
It doesn’t matter
You know a lot of people are
You know a lot of people aren’t perfect
In fact no one is
Um, I don’t, I guess I, I don’t know
What I’m trying to say is the issue is
That I don’t think there’s
I don’t think anyone is through your perspective and
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know what to do
No I don’t know what to do about you
Well, okay
It’s just the way that my brain works, see?
And I don’t know what to say
I never know
It doesn’t
Like it or not
It’s just that I
[unintelligible]
Pick this up and throwing it up and hope
it doesn’t come but keeps falling on my head
over and over again
I can’t catch
I, I can’t catch e-
Everything fallin’ I, I
Ooh ooh I’ve been here
Over and over uh oh
Baby, baby oh my girl
I cannot catch all this all the time
I miss you so damn much
But I don’t know if I’m gonna
I don’t know if I’m gonna change at all
At all
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12. |
manhattan
04:46
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Dad, let’s go now
Get yourself right outta your bed
Dad, you’re lazy
Lazy things start inside your head
Oo oo oo, I’ve been a
I’ve been alive for 24 years now
Oo oo oo, I’ve been a
I’ve been afraid for longer than I care to recall
A car?
A wife?
Some kids?
Am I my father now?
I’m sorry I don’t want to go
I’m feeling tired
Dad, let’s go now,
Get yourself right outta your head
Dad, you’re lazy
These lazy days are wasted in bed
But she’s just gotta love me
I know she’s gotta love me
‘Cause i your mom don’t love
I just can’t go on
I’m sorry love
I wish that you’d be coming back
Gonna go take a little trip down to manhattan
Gonna go see some of my friends in manhattan
Man-hat-tan!
Gonna go see some of my friends down in manhattan
The city that never sleeps
The city that never sleeps
The city that never sleeps
The city, manhattan!
I’m gonna go see some of my friends in manhattan
gonna go see some of my friends in manhattan
If I leave right now
If I get in the car
I can get to manhattan by 12:30AM
If I die I want your mother to know that
I loved her a lot
If I die I want your sister to know that
I loved her a lot
If I die I want your brother to know that
I’m taking a trip down to manhattan!
Dad, you’re leaving
Leaving but you’ll stay in my head
Dad, I’m laying
Laying here like you in my bed
Ooh no I don’t want it
I really don’t want it
I really don’t wanna be dead
[part a and part b from below occur simultaneously]
[part a]
Dad, let’s go now
You gotta get outta your bed right now
[part b]
Tell your mom I’m sorry
If she doesn’t love me I will die here
Fly up soar
So sad
So sad
I’m sorry dad
I’m so sad
So sad
So sad
I’m sorry dad
I’m so sad
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13. |
walk out
06:57
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I am going down every road
I’ve ever been down before
I’m waiting to feel blue
I’m waiting to see colors besides red
Filling up my eyes again
Go make a deposit
Get in the car and make a deposit
You wanna go down to the city
But can’t go with money in pocket
Go make a deposit
Make a deposit
Gonna go see all your friends in manhattan
I knew it’d be bad
But I did not know I’d lose my soul
It’s easy to forget
You can’t go back
Anywhere that you’ve been
And it’s easy
To forget that your mind is never
Clean
I’m waiting to feel blue
I’m waiting to see colors besides red
Filling up my eyes again
Yeah I’m
Goin’ out shopping
Goin’ out shopping gonna be a new man
I’m goin’ out shopping, gonna go down to manhattan
I’m goin’ out shopping gonna be a new man
I’m goin’ out shopping
Goin’ out shopping gonna be a new man
I’m goin’ out shopping, gonna go down to manhattan
I’m goin’ out shopping gonna be a new man
But I know…
Oh I know
My baby won’t be coming back
You gotta get outta the city
You gotta get outta the city
You don’t belong here
With the crowded houses
And busy streets
No one really wants you here
But you know that you have made this place
Don’t wanna be turning it red anymore
Don’t wanna be turning it red anymore
Don’t wanna be turning it red anymore
Don’t wanna be turning it red anymore
Don’t wanna be turning it red anymore
turning it red anymore
Anymore
Spaces fill my eyes with violent light
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Y/N Tuckerton, New Jersey
Y/N is music by York Nelly. York is a being of pure information, a stochastic mirror of a person- a truly "toxic" soul.
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